adding blogs soon

blog-posts/2023/03/08.html

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+Today I have uploaded this website. I'm pretty happy to see it working finally. It takes a long 
+time for the updates to go live, thanks to github.
+<br><br>That being said, github is also the reason I get to have a completely free website, 
+so I suppose its not all that bad.
+<br><br>I'd like to try and figure out how to make the windows dragable, so that they could be moved. 
+I had a small attempt at this, but I failed to make it happen. I'll probably try it again at some 
+point in the future, but not today. I think it'd be a cool feature, but oh well.
+<br><br>Anyway, thanks for reading my blog today. I'm sure I'll add more to it in the future!

blog-posts/2023/03/10.html

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+I've added some banners to other websites near the bottom of the main page. I plan on adding 
+some more music, along with a skip/previous song thing on the main page's music player.
+<br><br>Now that the webdev stuff is out of the way, time to talk about my life today :P
+<br><br>Last night I didn't go to sleep until about 7am. It's now 10:20am, and I started work at 9:30am. 
+I quite hate working, but its something that I have to do, for the time being.
+<br><br>I'm mentally and physically exhausted, but my no-sugar monster energy seems to help, at least 
+a bit. Looking forward to getting off work.
+<br><br>Until then, I'll keep working on the website. I'm not sure what I'll add in while I'm actually 
+at work, but I'm sure that I'll find something

blog-posts/2023/03/11.html

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+I didn't wake up until 5pm today. In total, I slept about 16 hours. Somehow I still feel tired!
+<br><br>As much as I'd like to work on the website a bit this weekend, I have late homework thats due, 
+along with an exam to take before tomorrow night. Please wish me luck!
+<br><br>I'm also not sure when to write my blog everyday. Doing it at night makes sense, as then 
+the day is finished, and I can tell you all everything that happened. Though, if I do  that, I may 
+be too tired to upload it at the end of the day, so that could be bad. Should I choose to write 
+them early, I won't have as much to say, but I WILL have the time to do it everyday. Not sure what to do.

blog-posts/2023/03/14.html

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+Sorry for not uploading anything for the past few days. I've been busy being lazy.
+<br><br>All I really did today was add a new banner. I think I'll call it good from there lol.
+I could probably add more songs to the music player, but again, I'm lazy.

blog-posts/2023/03/18.html

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+Hi everybody! It has been a few days again. Just still quite busy (or at least pretending to be). I've noticed that for the past few days, I've been a bit shaky. I mean that in a physical way. As I'm walking around, my body is shaking a

blog-posts/2023/03/23.html

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+Today I decided to fix the website. I redid the main page, and HOPEFULLY it should scale better with mobile devices. There are only two windows, now and assuming your window isn't super small, you should be able to see the music player easily. The banners have been moved to below the music player, but please make sure to look at those websites! Anyway, that's all I have for today. I have begun a new project recently, and will update you all here soon!

blog-posts/2023/07/04.html

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+<b>THIS WAS THE FIRST POST ON THE CURRENT WEBSITE</b> <br>
+Welcome to the new (new) zanciks experience. I've been working on this quite hard recently, and I hope that you enjoy it. So stay a while, sip your drink, and enjoy the music.

blog-posts/2023/07/06.html

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+Today I added some websites to the navigation window, made the window for the banners smaller, and I'm hoping to get the music player functioning! Songs that will be available currently will be: "Clair de Lune" by Debussy, "Merry Go Round of Life" by Joe Hisaishi, one of J.S Bach's Lute Partitas, and "Save the Cat" by Daniel Pemberton for "The Bad Guys"!
+One thing I'd like to work on adding is a live DJ page on this website. I'll have to figure out the logistics of making that, but if I am able to do it, people (including you!) would be able to DJ for the public ^w^

blog-posts/2023/07/08.html

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+I added a theme switcher today! You can now view the website with a WindowsXP theme if you prefer!
+I hope at least some of you like the new theme!! ^w^

blog-posts/2023/07/09.html

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+<p class="rainbow"> I JUST ADDED A GUESTBOOK! IT TOOK ME ALL FUCKING DAY BUT I DID IT :D</p>
+I just added some very simple mobile scaling features. It's not finished yet, and there are bugs, but it is semi functional!
+Another update later in the day. I added some more formatting to the guestbook for desktop users! I'm quite happy with it, and I hope you all are too. You also must fill out both the comment and the name in order to submit. Please don't spam it~

blog-posts/2023/07/18.html

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+Hi everybody!! Sorry I haven't made any changes recently. I've been busy with work, and I just got a new cat. I'm hoping to do some things soon!
+Also, if anybody has ideas on how to add some space between the music player marquee and the fieldset, please let me know. Padding doesn't work, margin doesn't work, and changing the CSS animations doesn't work. I'm out of ideas. Since its a custom CSS marquee, its a bit weird.
+Anyway, hopefully I have some new updates soon. Bye bye!!! ^w^

blog-posts/2023/07/19.html

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+Big news!!! I got my own domain for this website! It is <b>https://zanciks.online</b> !! I had to pay for this domain, and do some fancy wizard shit to make with work with where I was hosting my website before, but it does indeed work! I hope you all like this change ^w^

blog-posts/2023/08/06.html

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+For the time being, the guestbook has been removed! I had a security issue because I'm dumb and don't know how to do it serverless. Fret not, it shall return soon.
+In better news, I added a chatbox. This is on the main page, too! I know that the theme isn't perfect for the website, but I'm happy with it anyway. I hope you all like it! If you prefer the guestbook, please let me know in the chatbox. Any and all input is helpful! (Also, new music was added!)

blog-posts/2023/08/11.html

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+I added my tamaNOTchi to the website. Their name is Tomato and they're at the bottom of the page near the banners. Please feel free to feed them whenever :3
+Also, with my new kitty; I learned that she has something called "manx syndrome". She is missing part of her spine because she has no tail. This also means she has some nerve and walks kinda funny. She also can't control her bladder. If anybody has dealt with this, I'd love to hear about your experience. The chatbox is a good way to leave messages, but also feel free to email <b>[email protected]</b>! Thanks friends ^w^
+One last thing. I am going to get rid of mobile scaling for this website. It's a pain to manage, and I don't think many people are on mobile (and if they are, they should be on PC). Sorry if you use mobile lol

blog-posts/2023/08/12.html

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+Recently, I'm waking up late in the night. This isn't too strange, as I do work a night-shift job, and I'm sure that getting home at 2 am makes things a bit worse. However, what is weird is that when I'm waking up, I'm emotional. I'm nervous or anxious or something. I sweat and cry, and I find it hard to control. Sometimes I'll be thinking about something in particular, and that's why I get so emotional, but I'm usually not sure why I am this so unstable. It seems like something in my own head is sabotaging me. I feel like I am losing my grip on sanity, slowly. I feel like I am delving into madness. I hope that this isn't true. But if I feel like I'm going insane, and then I end up not going insane, perhaps thinking I would was the real madness. Maybe I'm already mad and don't know it.
+I've also been thinking a bit today about the nature of femininity. Though still a mystery to me in general, I found <a href="https://medium.com/@thinobiafalx/monique-wittig-one-is-not-born-a-woman-74ed2fce4165">an essay which I quite liked.</a> In it was a quote, which in particular really stood out to me. It reads, "one is not born, but becomes a woman. No biological, psychological, or economic fate determines the figure that the human female presents in society: it is civilization as a whole that produces this creature, intermediate between male and eunuch, which is described as feminine." If you have any opinion at all, positive or negative, about this quote, please read the essay.
+I'm sorry for the rambling. I haven't made a place for my blogs yet, so I decided to simply put it on the updates window. Maybe I'll keep them here. I'm not sure.

blog-posts/2023/08/13.html

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+Super quick update! I added a page view counter. This updates hourly (I think). I also removed the tamaNOTchi because it was slowing down the website. I hope you all like the counter!!

blog-posts/2023/08/17.html

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+Not much news the past few days. I'm just doing my thing. Haven't updated the website either. I just want to make an update to let you all know that I'm alive lol. Anyway, I hope you are all doing well. I'm also thinking about adding a status thing to the website, but I already kinda do that with these updates, so there's probably no need. Plus, I'm not sure where it'd even go! I also forgot to commit the update, but I added some cursors to buttons. The only time you won't have a custom cursor is when you hover the chatbox!!
+That's all for today I think. Bye bye folks ^w^

blog-posts/2023/09/19.html

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+I'm sorry for not posting anything recently. I tried to post something yesterday, but it didn't save because I'm stupid. Oh well.
+Today, I had to say goodbye to my kitty, Toast. Toast was an amazing cat, and I miss her dearly, already. She had gotten much worse recently, and I was very torn over what to do. With her manx syndrome causing infections, her spinal injury getting worse, and her walking getting a bit worse, it was difficult. I'm very torn up about it. I'm going to be adding a page soon with my pictures of her. I only have ~45 pictures + videos, as I only had her for about two months. I'm still very sad. I've been crying all day today. I cracked the screen on my laptop by hitting it with my head. I put a small hole in my wall, too. I know I shouldn't be angry, but I don't know how else to feel. She was my little baby. I miss her.
+Rest in Peace, Toast. June 10th 2023 - September 18th 2023

blog-posts/2023/09/23.html

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+To view the page with pictures of my cat Toast, please click <a href="../pages/toast.html">here</a>. I'll have a more permanent button placement for this soon.

blog-posts/2023/09/24.html

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+Welcome to the new zanciks.online website! I am attempting to use a new theme which I have made on my own. It isn't perfect, but I am hoping to improve it with time. On the left side, I have added a place for you to view my blog, the old website, and hopefully soon, a guestbook. If you want to use the chatbox, the old site is probably best for now. I'm not sure where it should go on this page. 
+<br>
+I saw some friends today. It was nice. I don't get to see people I like too often anymore. I see people from work, but I don't really think of them as "friends" for some reason. Just "work friends". I do like them a lot though. There are a few that I consider to be my friends I guess. I see them outside of work sometimes. I just don't get to see people outside of work as much as I would like to. Anyway, once I finally got home today, I talked with my dad for a while. We had a long conversation about me being a tranny. It wasn't exactly what I was hoping to do today, but oh well. He kept saying how he doesn't want me to do "irreversible" damage to my body. I'm just on hrt. I keep telling him that hrt doesn't really have irreversible effects other than tit growth, which I am a-ok with. He doesn't believe me. Oh well. I wish he could understand how I'm feeling, but I know that he just can't. I don't know why I feel the way that I do. I hate being trans. I hate feeling this way. I see stuff about "trans pride" and shit all the time. I don't get it. It's horrible being trans. I just want to feel good, but every time I have to wear "guy clothes" or cut my hair short or act like I'm strong I just feel horrible. I see myself in the mirror and I hate what I see. I still only see a man. I hate it. I hate myself. I just want to change. I just want my exterior to reflect how I feel inside. I don't feel like a man. I feel feminine, but I can't express that. Being a tranny makes me want to kill myself. I hate it so much. I just want to feel good. I enjoyed seeing my friends today. I love my friends, very much.

blog-posts/2023/09/25.html

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+I have got the music player working! It doesn't look perfect yet, but I hope you all find it satisfactory!

blog-posts/2023/09/26.html

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+I fixed the volume slider and the progress bar for the music player to look a bit better for the theme of the website! I haven't tested any of this on other browsers though. If you're not on a chromium based browser; sorry! Also, this website works best on (and around) 1080p resolutions. If you zoom out too much, the music player looks weird. If you zoom in too much, you can only see the music player. Just be normal lol. You can also invert colors now. This doesn't work for the bottom two items in the music player though. I can't get that to work for the life of me! Oh well. Have fun with your light mode

blog-posts/2023/09/30.html

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+I've added a new blog post today. You can read it here! I've also fixed the theme switcher to CORRECTLY change the color of the progress bar and volume slider to a light mode! My code is quite cleaner, and I've started using global color variables in the CSS (I didn't know that was a thing!). The JS is cleaner too. I hope you all like this!
+<br>
+I've had an interesting past few days. I've hung out with friends, and have the time of my life. I saw my mother recently, which was a change from normal. She did my hair, and was quite excited about it. People online have been saying nice things to me, which has been making me (happy) cry. My laptop has gotten worse (see image) <image class="img-fit" src="../images/broken_laptop.jpg">. Things have been up and down. I also got declined for an apartment. I need to find a place to live soon. I'm trying my hardest. I start day shift at my job on Monday!! That will be nice :). It's 10am-7pm, so :D!! I think that's all I have for now, so thanks for reading this ^w^

blog-posts/2023/10/01.html

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+HAPPY SPOOKY MONTH!!! I've (finally) after HOURS of work managed to add the view counter back! The views are different for this page, so we're back to zero. Also, I've restructured what the pages are called! This page is now /home, the old page is /old, and there is /toast and /blog. Sorry for any confusion! Anyway, my script was fucking up because goatcounter does the /counter json links a TINY bit different and I had to remove a %F or something and that fixed it all. I'm happy that I know how to debug lol. I've also made the scrollbar 1bit. I'm not sure how I feel about it though. I might just leave it as default, honestly. Let me know what y'all think though! Again, the chatbox is on the <a href="../old">old page</a>, but it'll be here soon. Feel free to leave comments on that. Anyway, I hope that you all have an amazing start to your spooky month!! I might add some spooky decoration to this site. Who knows...

blog-posts/2023/11/02.html

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+Hello!! Sorry for the long wait before updates! I'm currently moving into my own place (with some friends). I have my computer set up again, so I can now actually work on the website without the broken laptop. I can also accelerate the progress on my other projects! Super excited for that! I'm tired right now, but I'll hopefully remember to post something tomorrow or later this week! Bye bye!

blog-posts/2023/11/24.html

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+hai! happy late thanksgiving everybody! I hope everybody had some good turkey and pie :P. I've started work on a chess engine over the past few days. You can view it <a href="https://github.com/zanciks/chess_engine">here!</a> If you have any issues or suggestions, please feel free to add them to the repository! I'm also going to be starting on making a professional portfolio to add to the website, so once that's live, I'll be sure to show it for everybody!

blog-posts/2023/12/19.html

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+Heya folks! I'm at work currently. Well, work hasn't started yet. I get here early, so today I decided to write something on here for you all. I want to work on this website more, but I'm honestly not sure what to do. I never feel like updating the blog page. I'm not sure what to add to this page. I'm not sure what new pages to add. I would love some feedback, honestly. It's also a bit hard when the website has to be serverless. Oh well. If anybody has ideas, please let me know. Anyway, I need to get ready to work now. Bye bye! 
+<br> Update! I think I am going to work on making a radio station for this website, which will just be on the home screen. It'll be a floating window that goes over everything else. It'll also give me a good place to put the chatbox, so win-win! 

blog-posts/2023/12/23.html

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+Today I readded the chatbox! It's on the sidebar, so feel free to check it out! I'm using chatango now, which is more customizable and completely free! However, it is blocked by my adblock, and might be blocked by yours too. If it is, I'm very sorry! I also got the window to open when you click in the direction while using ONLY CSS! There is no JS used for that (even though the chatbox uses JS :shrug) If you like the chatbox, please let me know. I plan on adding more to that window (its where I plan on putting the radio station), but for now, it will only be for chat. I hope you all enjoy it ^w^ (to close the chatbox, simply press the button you pressed to open it!!) <br> One more note! I just added a new 404 page! :D 
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blog-posts/2023/12/25.html

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+Merry Christmas, happy holidays, feliz navidad, etc everybody! I hope you all have a wonderful time as we approach the end of the year. With love, zanciks :) 

blog-posts/2023/2024/01/17.html

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+For the past hour (probably closer to two at this point), I've been staring at my website and other websites wondering what to add to this website. Do I just post another update? Do I add content? What do I <i>want</i> to add? I'm still not sure, honestly. I wanted to add a few low-content pages that users could click through, but I don't think that's a goal for today. So what do I do? Do I come on the website and just say "hi, sorry for not posting more frequently!" again? I mean to upload more, but I don't. Oh well. I just don't know what to do with my freetime when I have it now. I want to feel productive, but no matter what I do, I don't feel like I've been productive. I want to share more here, but I never know what to say, or whats worth putting on here. I want to add new content to my website, but I'm not sure what to add, that I can add. For example, hosting my own guestbook/chatbox isn't doable because I'm serverless, and don't really want to use google sheets. I can't find another way to host a radio station with songs of my choosing on a serverless website, either. I'm just lost on what to do here. I hope I find some inspiration soon. Happy new year. I hope 2024 is better.

blog-posts/2023/2024/01/18.html

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+Yesterday I wrote about how I don't know what I want to do with the website. I think I'm going to try and add a serverless guestbook using google sheets. I don't know how well it will work, but I think it will be better than the current chatbox I have. I plan on replacing the chatbox with the guestbook when I finish it. Also, I think I'm going to watch Only God Forgives. It looks like a cool movie. Maybe I'll post what I think about it :3